Hello and thank you for reading, again. Sorry I haven’t kept you informed. It’s just been a rough time to wrap my feelings around and express myself…I know, that sounds crazy coming from ME! Laughing, here! But, YES, there ARE times when even I am speechless. I’ve struggled for God’s guidance and for my own positive sanity more than other times in my life. Mostly, I write my blog to some benefit. If I’m not strong enough to be an inspiration, I don’t see a purpose for sharing with you, I guess. I want to be encouraging and to lift you up when I write. It actually ends up lifting ME up and inspiring to ME when I write with you in mind.
Scottsdale, Arizona, 3 AM, unable to sleep because my heart is doing flips in my chest and my mind won’t take a break. If you haven’t been kept up with my little health saga, you can find a link to the health blog on the right side of the main blog page where you can read specifics about the past few months. The Mayo Clinic is touted as one of the best in the country. I’m here for answers. The ablation surgery was 6 weeks ago and I’m not feeling as much better as I was told I would by now. The surgery was rough, painful and long. The final spot, after burning 5 other spots in my heart, was found to be in the left atrium. Still short of breath. Still light-headed. Still VERY tired. My heart seems to be doing cart wheels at the most inopportune times, leaving my hands shaking and me gulping for air. The best news is that during the ablation they did a gauge reading in the pulmonary artery and it read normal. So, either the pulmonary hypertension is no longer a diagnosis or it comes and goes. Maybe Mayo will clarify that for me.
I won’t go on now and I probably won’t put the next health blog on the music time line. So, look for the pulmonary hypertension portion of the blog if you want to read about this issue in my life. Thank you so much for caring.
Dear God, Please lay your healing hand upon me and show me clearly what you want from me in this life. You have good plans for me, plans to make a difference in this world. I have spent too many days focused on this search for answers. Please help me to live a full life while continuing to care for myself. Help me teach my daughters and those around me that it is right to take care of yourself and that only by doing this can you turn around and care for others. Help me to laugh joyfully and think positively. Help me to see the gift in each moment. Please watch over the doctors at Mayo Clinic that I’ll see over the next few days. Open their hearts to sincere care and lead them to the answers that are needed to heal me completely and help my family during this difficult time, as well. YOU are my reason, Lord. I love you and offer my life to glorify you. Amen
You will be in my prayers, joining your own, that God will give the Mayo doctors an answer for you and give you strength for each day.