make myself stop writing…….from being pulled into new and interesting sounds……..turn away from unplanned inspiration………….so that I can have the time to perfect the compositions that I’ve already written and get them recorded!?? I like to write things that don’t sound like anything else that I’ve written before and for THIS reason, learning them after they’ve come rushing at me takes many more hours than the original time of writing them takes. I hadn’t planned it, but I’ve been writing unique instrumentals to fill out the newest CD. sigh……..I guess I have to take a step backwards into reality. I have to sell some of the current CDs to justify the cost of producing the next one. But, I tell myself that if I can find the money, this is a project that I would want to happen…..whether it is a financial carrot at the end of it all or not……….I want my music to have a chance to be heard! And people are NOT going to hear it if I don’t record it………People tell me that they are enjoying the music that is already out there and I’m really happy for that. Everyone now and then I’ll take a listen to the things that I’ve recorded this past year and realize that it really IS good……but the NEWEST stuff is truly the best that has come from my heart. It has a different flavor. I’m older, now, and I think that some of what I’ve learned is coming through in my music….. and if I were to die…….OK, so some people say I’m morbid…but REALLY, I just use this way of thinking to inspire my life in a practical way….You know……what would you do if you only had 6 months to live, kind of thing………SOoooo, if I were to die…I would be very sad NOT to have shared my new music with everyone…… With that said and confirmed, I suppose that should just stop fussing about the cost and get on with it!
So, you just wittnessed, first hand, my self talk and ways that I usually use my journal and come to conclusions…… I’ve always said that if you’re going to talk to yourself…..you’re really not very smart unless you come up with a good rePLY! Who else better to help you see what it is that you really want or need…but YOURSELF??!!
I performed at a nice little bed and breakfast last week and the crowd was lovely. There weren’t scores of people. It was very intimate and everyone was fun to share with. I’m still adding fun songs to my show to round out all of the sentimental and moving songs that I tend to write for myself and everyone was surprised and sang along with some silly old songs that I threw in. If you happen to be reading from Mexico, please come to hear me in May. I should be playing at Ota Vez on the evening of May 8th. It will be a great evening of fun and I can’t wait to share my newest songs in Spanish with everyone. I’ll have 10 days in Mexico to myself while the rest of the family is farming in Iowa. So, I’ve planned to pick each of my pieces for the new CD to PIECES and arrange them in wonderful ways. :o) I may be able to do a night at Rancho Leonaro, also. It is a classy, but cozy, resort on the shore that serves the best ribs in Baja.
I recorded several new videos, this week, for the youtube channel. Hopefully, it won’t take me forever to get them posted. If you haven’t seen them, google “youtube channel drmarymusic” and you can listen to a few recordings from earlier this year.
Thank you for reading and hope to be able to sing to you, soon. ‘night
Musical hugs from Mary