Thank you for listening to my music and for the encouraging words that you say to me. Sharing these songs with you MUST be part of the purpose that I have this drive….
I’ve been haunted with so many new ideas for songs and tunes that I am a little exhausted…..I never wake that there aren’t words and notes flying around in my brain……………..and of course there’s not often the time to grab my guitar or my paper to catch them in my little net……There’s breakfast to prepare, schoolwork to complete, and patients to treat……….I have to find a way to allow these unexpressed inspirations to fill me with joy……..to fill me with energy and a sense of being given a gift, instead of the hollow feeling of loss that I often experience when the notes drift away before I manage to harness the energy and turn it to the page in into something amazing……….I have to admit that my original songs probably surprise and amaze ME more than the average listener. ……….maybe because I know how busy my life is…..how hard it is to find an hour to focus on the creative process……It’s almost like I’m not really the composer, but simply the pencil that writes it all down. There is a frenzy of nervous anxiety, a fear that I may not have the time to bring it to climax….As I write and create, even after all of these hundreds of songs that I’ve pulled from inside my head, I still find myself in awe of the final product and humbled by the whole process. I know that I am happy that you are enjoying these treasures that I’ve mined from my mind…..But, I imagine that it would still be neccessary for me to create, even if there was no one listening…….I imagine that from within my idealistic spirit I would think that SOMEone, SOMEday, possibly when I’m long gone, will listen and be moved to realize that there was something special that had quietly been brewing………..someone special that was still singing and reaching out and that it will give me joy and satisfaction, even if this happens once I’m gone. Have a good week, my friend, Mary