Last night, I personally had a greatly needed break when I went to listen to James Smith and Endre Balogh in the wonderful violin/classical guitar concert. It was magical and for a moment I didn’t think about the stress of the day and the possibilities for Mom and our family. I smiled spontaneously and moved to the peaceful and playful sounds that rang from their instruments. What a gift that was and on a day that I truly needed it.
Yesterday was one of Mom’s most difficult days. I was worried that she had had another stroke or that I was just going to lose her. Her blood pressure was very low for her and keeping her conscious and understanding reality was very hard. I think that part of the problem was that they were continuing to give her percocet and she’s never done very well on it. I’m praying that the signs that I saw yesterday were due to several days of taking a medication that has given her problems in the past and that we’ll see an improvement the longer she isn’t medicated. She tried to stay with us, but finally just had to sleep and the sleep was so deep……deep like that deep sleep when something isn’t quite right. She called me at 2:00, this morning and needed consoling and I was happy that after we prayed on the phone, she offered that it was time for her to go back to bed. She can’t understand why she has to be here and wants so desperately to come home. I pray that she’ll be able to do that. We love her, so much.
On a really bright note, though, TODAY is much better!! She is more alert and eating better. Mom has been walking some but forgets to watch where she’s going and often runs into things if not guided to pay attention. Her strength is returning and she is a little frustrated and angry that she has to stay in such a place. She tracks and understands as the conversation is shared about the stroke and the rehab, but ultimately forgets and then feels more like a prisoner, I’m afraid. Jeanne and John Precup have come for a visit and will hopefully be coming back. Endre and James have called and offered to give Mom a private concert!! What a wonderful gesture of love from them……..to share their lovely and loving gift. While they were on stage, I could feel the expression and loving way that they each carress their instrument and I was moved. I hope that it will move Mom, as well.
Keep PRAYING!!! We’ve got a long way to GO! Thank you, so,
Remember she’s in 135 at the ARU at Montrose Hospital and needs interaction with people that she knows and who know her. I know that you’re busy, but if you can step in, it will mean the world to her………and to me.
We’ll post pictures with this later today.